tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2730331862351722275.post4839075694467251078..comments2020-02-08T01:01:25.636-05:00Comments on 12 December 2008: Lorihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14154205811855856931noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2730331862351722275.post-37822378189455610252011-07-27T03:11:59.330-04:002011-07-27T03:11:59.330-04:00Personally, I think you're a fucking trooper. ...Personally, I think you're a fucking trooper. I also wish I was as brave as you to lay it on the line honestly about how shitty you feel. I have days and weeks like you've described (without the physical aspects) and I realize that there is not much of a reason for me to be like that. I mean, as far as health - I'm healthy. But since we moved to BC I can honestly say I have not made one single friend, I have not been dressed in real clothes more than 2 days in a row. My idea of "getting out" is to go grocery shopping on my pathetic work from home budget and try to do it in the 90 minute Transit time limit so I don't have to spend another $2.50 to get home.<br /><br />I get to rationalize and find funny ways to say how shitty my life is here but can't do it seriously - especially not out loud or on facebook - because if anyone really knew how much I hated my so called life they would realize I'm not always the strong willed, self determined super trooper I've let people rely on me to be. I hate being the "brain" for everyone in my fucking family. No one - including my husband - can make a fucking decision on their own. From which way to drive to the bank (my oldest kid) to where to go to dinner since the place he suggested for date night is closed on Sundays - I make nearly every single fucking decision in my world. Sounds like it should be awesome. It ain't.<br /><br />But hey. I guess we both just fake it till we make it. Smile through the tears. Laugh at the pile of shit on our heads and get through another year. It's that or swallow a bottle of pills with a whiskey chaser right?<br /><br />and yeah, I'm doing this anonymously cause I'm a chicken shit.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2730331862351722275.post-71420615531907158502011-07-16T23:29:41.784-04:002011-07-16T23:29:41.784-04:00I've got nothing.
Just wanted to say Hi, I&#...I've got nothing. <br /><br />Just wanted to say Hi, I've not been here for awhile.<br /><br />AnneAnne Phttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07630895464447581306noreply@blogger.com