Friday, November 23, 2012

More progress?

FINALLY, I have an actual, sit down, in-person job interview. It happens on Tuesday afternoon.

I'm really excited about other things I am doing to improve my lot. If you're friends with me on Facebook you'll hear all about it, but I won't be sharing any of it here. I am going to try to keep my words separate.

I've been having an old familiar symptom. I don't know that it's related to MS, but it is DEFINITELY related to not having a job.

I get anxiety every time I leave the house. It feels like I'm doing something wrong or I'm going somewhere I shouldn't. It's crazy, I know. But I think it's related to the fact that almost every time I leave the house I have to spend money, money that I can ill afford to spend until I get a job.

It makes me think of this article - The 5 Stupidest Habits You Develop Growing Up Poor.

Let me preface this by saying that I did not grow up poor, but I have been living by various means on my own since I was around 17 years old. I've been broke or close to broke for 20 years, with only a few months respite here and there.

"#1. You Only Spend with the Short Term in Mind" is the one thing that I have a bad habit of doing. It drives me crazy. Joe does it too. It also drives me crazy. But I think it's that mindset that causes my anxiety.

And knowing is half the battle. Or something.


I remain hopeful that my life changes next week, but I am not confident. This crazy job market is quickly beating me down. We'll see how it all goes.


  1. I'm banned from Facebook so don't know what's going on in anyone's life :(

    1. I'll email you and tell you. It's awesome and you'll love it.

  2. YEAY!!! Na na na na boo boo! I know the secret... lol.. As for the anxiety. I have that too. It comes partly from the spending money you don't have every time you leave the house and this insane idea that every waking moment must be devoted to working or doing something "productive" or looking for work etc. I know mine is from the work side. Working from home makes me feel like I have to be on my computer 24/7 working. Even going upstairs to get lunch makes me anxious. Like I am wasting time. But then I have the guilt of not hanging with my kids or husband when I have a deadline. It's such a catch 22.

    Hoping for the best with your job interview. But way way impressed and excited about the recent changes and growth in the last few weeks for you!!