Classic TV

"My mother always used to say: 'The older you get, the better you get, unless you're a banana.'"

 Rose Nylund (Betty White)

The Golden Girls

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I can't fall asleep until I watch The Golden Girls. I laugh out loud at least once during every episode. That almost never happens when I watch current sitcoms.

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"You know what they say: you can lead a herring to water, but you have to walk really fast or he'll die."

  Rose Nylund (Betty White)

The Golden Girls

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I need a job so bad, if only for the excuse to leave my house and wake up at a time before 10 AM every day.

Tomorrow Joe and I are going to do a bunch of deep cleaning/seasonal chores tomorrow.

I have no idea how that's going to work, but it is going to work.

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Thanks Kimli!

Rain Clearing, Breezy Overnight.

"It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up."

"Who needs action when you got words?"

My current obsessions include, but are not limited to:

Betty White
Finding the time to write
Finding subjects to write about
Cold remedies
Finding a job
Trying to make people like me

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Will I reach a point in my life where there's nothing more to say, and only things to do?

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Will I reach a point in my life when I realize that the horizon I am looking at today is land under my feet?

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I'm never sure if where I am standing is where I planned to be. I knew back then that I wanted to be anywhere but here. But I'm pretty sure that where I am now isn't what I was hoping for.

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The eastern horizon is a wall of tree covered volcanic rock. In my tired, weaker moments, I find it claustrophobic. I am unable to fly. That feels like the only way to get free of this place.

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"But those were all just guesses, wouldn't help you if they could."

91 instead of 89

Betty White is going to turn 91 next week.

My grandmothers never made it to that age, and neither were close to Betty's level of vigour and health for years before they died.

Every time I watch Betty White I get sad a little because I want MY 91 to look like Betty's 91, not the 89 years both my grandmothers made it to.

I have MS. The likelihood that my 91 is going to look like Betty's is... probably overly optimistic.

But I think that I can do something that can make it not like my grandmothers'.

Given the recent medical history in my family, I could stand on a nuclear reactor core and not get cancer. However, if I eat nothing but meat and potatoes or sit down for too long I will have severe dementia for the last three years of my life before having a stroke or brain bleed.

Cardiovascular disease will kill me. It will kill me like it killed every. single. one. of my grandparents.

I want to be Betty, not my grandmothers.

So what do I do about that?

I guess I could start by not fuelling my waking hours with caffeine and sugar, and go back to eating real food of carbohydrates and proteins. 

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I'm the kind of person who eats half a pint of Ben and Jerry's or microwaves a bag of popcorn for supper because it's easier than thinking about cooking. I am not a big fan of food and generally only eat until my stomach stops growling. This often leads to a growling stomach a short time later. I have to be in the mood, as well as hungry, to eat. I don't like to eat for no reason.

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I could also stop being the kind of person that thinks half a pint of Ben & Jerry's or a bag of microwave popcorn is dinner.

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I could also become the kind of person who gets dressed every day. Or the kind of person who gets dressed every day and leaves the house.

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I seriously don't want to talk about it.

Well, Week 1 of 2013 is just hours away from completion and I am really, really not impressed.

2013 smells of 2012. It's like it's been contaminated by proximity.

Still no job. Still no idea where to find one.

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I'm done. I need to change everything. How I do that is clear, but I lack the resources to do it right now.

Anyone got a spare $10,000 laying around that you'd like to change someone's life with?

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YAY4HOCKEY!