I'm kind of lost these days. As I try to reclaim my life things are not soul-crushingly bad, but just a steady stream of inconvenient and disappointing news, day after day, week after week, month after month.
I'm just really tired being disappointed. I look at the job ads and find that I am over qualified or not qualified to do much of anything in this day and age. I've passed all the physical and mental abilities tests and don't qualify for disability benefits.
Most importantly, if I can't do what I did before, what can I do? I have not a single entrepreneurial bone in my body. I am not creative or talented enough to figure out how to support myself doing something I already know how to do. (Mostly because I'm not much good at anything that someone would pay me to do.)
Today, like many days before now, I think I'm just going to go back to bed. I've done all I can for today as disappointing as that is.
Looking for work (especially with a medical condition complicating things) is a painful and dejecting process. In these times of economic uncertainty when people aren't spending or hiring it’s hard to be on the outs trying to get your foot in the door. I can only empathize and say that looking in the mirror as often as I can and saying I am more intelligent, talented and skilled then I think I am (and I am sure you are too) is important. Find strength in the quite moments, perseverance in the difficult ones and hope in all else.
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