Today

I have spent the bulk of this afternoon crying.

I have tried everything I can to find a way out of this crazy bad situation, and I'm losing my mind.

It's starting to give me vertigo, leg weakness, and sore shoulders. I need to get out of this house, but you can only walk around the block so many times before you feel like you are wasting your time and your life and you just want to start screaming in public.

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I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of wasted effort. I'm tired of wasting away in this apartment. I'm tired.

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I think I'm done here for today. I've done everything I can today, I'm still sure it's not enough, but I am done.