Thursday, October 11, 2012

Fear

I hate being reminded that my life has an entire metric that almost no one else I know has.

Future plans - chances of MS relapse = reasonable expectations
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Life changed on Monday night. I can't go into it in public, but the nearer future of my life changed completely.

I am not sure how I feel about that.
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I have to rewrite my resume again. Thankfully, there's still some vodka in the house.
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This is my brain on fear when I can't say anything out loud and have to edit my thoughts.

2 comments:

  1. this may seemlike inadequate observation, but being chronically ill myself, i overcame my fear, by looking to faith, and thought patterns. Louise Hay, who wrote you can heal your life, was my inspiration...perhaps this may be of assistance to you... take care!

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    1. It took me a little while to approve this comment because I am trying to find a way to respond that isn't aggressive but conveys the depth of my feeling about your observation.

      I appreciate that faith works for you. I prefer to put my faith in science and reason.

      I believe, truly and completely, that Louise Hay is an intellectual fraud. I do believe in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, but I can no more heal my MS by changing my mind about it than I could set a broken leg by praying about it.

      I find your observation more than inadequate. I find it insulting.

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