Hurry Up!

So, my Thursday coffee and conversation might turn into something. It might turn into something that fits ideally into The New Plan. It probably even fits the longer term plan.

I cannot be too confident. I do not want to be disappointed. I do not want to be hopeful.

Joe got excellent news today and so now he's even more on board with The New Plan.

Now if only the NHL lockout would be over or one of these lottery tickets pays out tonight or tomorrow night, this weekend would be the most awesome ever.

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My NFL habit starts the weekend at 0-1. Purple lost last night to fucking Tampa. TAMPA!

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I know exactly what to do. I just need to do it. Please let next Wednesday come quickly. That's when I find out what the outcome is of the coffee and conversation. Which hopefully will take the sting out of the unpleasantness of my two MS-related trips to hospital clinics on Monday and Wednesday morning.

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MS has given me a body that often acts like that of 60+ woman... which I guess isn't all that surprising given that MS has given me premature ovarian failure, muscle weakness and stiff joints. I found out what it's like to have an aging body 30 years ahead of schedule.

yay...

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I just want the days to pass. I need to get things moving forward. I am impatient when I can't act.

This might be the most harmful thing to me.